Why I Think I Have No Friends

Walking into the dining hall alone is perhaps the scariest thing ever. I walk in, and look around for someone I know and half the time I can't find anyone. The people that I would like to hang out with never eat at the same time as me and so often I end up sitting by myself - also partly to the fact that my roommate ignores me. So therefore I have come to the conclusion that I must have no friends.

Whether or not this is true has no validity at the moment since I have already determined that I have no friends since no one I know is in the dining hall when I need to eat. There have been times when I make plans with someone and then it doesn't work out - which has also led me to believe that I have no friends.

I soon realized as I processed this way of thinking, that I based my friendships on whether or not my "friends" were in the dining hall when I wanted to eat. How dare you skip a meal and leave me here alone. As if I am the most important person in the world and if you don't eat with you are not my friend.

Obviously this thinking is wrong and I have friends. As a matter of fact I just ate dinner with one.

I Accompany Someone for the First Time

So my friend asked me to accompany him for his hymn project in his theory class (which I withdrew from because it was above my experience level and blah blah blah) and I said yes, thinking that it would enable me to get over my fear of performing in front of people and therefore I would gain more experience. 

Ok maybe a valid point but I had less than 12 hours to learn the music I had to play....hymn in CM no biggie, and I learned it in 2 and 1/2 hours of straight practice (I even skipped my oral communication class).

As you can imagine, it comes time to play and I freak out and mess up and now I feel pretty lame and I hope my friend didn't get a bad grade on his project due to my uncalm nerves. In short, I just feel pretty terrible but at least I didn't stop half way through the song?

Lonely Reliance

Waiting for a sign
You're blowing up my mind
I'm lonely and I'm lost without you
Searching for a line
To help the past rewind
Discovering what is and isn't true

Wanting to define
What am I in mankind
If you're not here then what do I do
Stars constantly align
What do I need to find
To make the time refresh and renew

Lonely is long, dark and silent,
But on My God I'll be ever reliant.

Stereotype Fun: A Rant of K-pop Gifs

So stereotypes are everywhere. Here are a couple:

To the people who think I can't play instruments because I'm not a music major:

To the people who think homeschoolers have social problems:

To the people who think computer science is all about using MS Word:

To the people who think Oxford is in the US:

Magic!

I got to see Magic! live in concert Saturday night! They were so fun. I thought I'd share the pictures I took with you guys. I couldn't format them correctly, so they are all kind of randomly on the page.

The Catalogue of Happy Endings

Hi guys,
So I launched the Catalogue of Happy Endings! Unfortunately since I cannot afford a domain it will be powered by Blogger like a blog.

I'm looking for people to add entries, so if you are interested, please let me know! It will take me a while to get a lot of content on here myself.

On Asian Dramas

Recently I have started watching Asian dramas on DramaFever because it is a website who offers the ability to watch shows and movies free and legally. You can pay for a subscription to buy HD streaming and get rid of ads, but you really don't need that because when you watch, you gain "premium credits", that enable you to watch an episode without ads. 

Since I withdrew from music theory on Wednesday (that's a whole other story), I had a lot more free time to get things done, like wash my sheets, organize my shelves, code, and of course, watch Korean dramas. So I watched My Tutor Friend 2. You can watch it for free legally if you click on the link. No viruses, really.

I like to search for lists of movies and dramas that end well. I plan on starting a separate website/blog that will start cataloging movies/tv shows that have good endings. I figure I'm probably not the only person looking for stuff to watch that doesn't end depressingly. 

But anyway, asian dramas are great, I love them, everyone should watch them, blah blah. I'm weird, but you know that already.

The Oncoming Storm

          I sit here on a cement block, but the world around me is far from industrial. Surrounded in green, the grass blows quietly in the breeze on an oncoming storm. The air is heavy, yet cool, attempting to relax my body to a sort of sleep as I write. My body sighs as I look around, gray and blue are relaxation colors. Small drops of mist fall from a gray cotton sky, comforting but at the same time somewhat ominous, like there is something behind the innocent drops. Rain is coming, approaching from the distance, and tension is building, but the world is quiet, enveloped in a sort of intense calm. Everyone is waiting in silence, listening, for the storm to come and pass.
          I love the short time before a storm, the atmosphere is relaxing to me and seems to fend away my stress. This is curious, considering the sky is building up to a storm, waiting to be led out. Occasionally I think the clouds predict my feelings, often the sky opens up when I’m feeling my worst. I become the conductor of water bound in wind, and my attitude becomes the rain. I feel a stronger connection to rain than I do to sunshine, life is not always bright and vibrant, but can be dark and seemingly colorless. Rain is always constant, and so the feeling of rain is more relatable to me.
          Waiting for a rainstorm is like waiting to cry. As the world is covered in gray, you anticipate the tears, but fight them, not wanting to admit that side of yourself. But when they come, you sigh, experiencing exponential relief, and the sky is released from its waiting. Perhaps this is why we love rain when we are sad, and why we feel we control rain. It is nearly a substitute for tears, we sometimes feel better after seeing rain, because the water from the sky brings a sort of freshness that gives us hope. It is almost as if the Earth cries for you, as if it feels your pain and wants to sooth it.
           The smell of rain is ten times stronger now, the mist is heavier - the rain storm is coming any moment. The world waits with one feeling, the anticipation of the rainstorm. The atmosphere is a blurred painting made up of blue and gray, and the mist makes the Earth look seemingly like an impressionists painting. It makes me wonder what the view is like from a tree top. Would it appear more abstract? I hurry up and pack up my books and pencil, not wanting my things to get wet. I sniff as I stand up - the smell of rain is almost as breathtaking as the smell of an old book. Deep breaths to take in the smell before I leave. Rain is beautiful, I think, and I would stay in it forever if I could.

To the Singer

Quietly, observing, waiting, hoping
To you I'm still invisible
I watch you laughing, dancing, singing,
Hoping one day you'll say hello

I'm too afraid to talk to you -
I go over phrases in my head
Try to come up with something new
But I scare myself instead

I know your smile well,
it lightens up my day
I don't know exactly when I fell,
But its too late to run away

I know I'm still invisible,
You'll probably never see me,
So sing for all eternal,
With the same bright voice of glee.

Self Confidence, or the Lack Of

So, hello, I am no longer a music major. I am officially a Computer and Information science major. It's funny that I'm in the mathematical sciences department and I absolutely hate math. I suppose I should explain this random extreme change in degree choices. So here goes.

It was that one class. 

So all the music majors have to take a class called "Keyboarding" which is preparation for the Piano proficiency test that all music majors have to pass. Me, being a piano major, was put in the Advanced Keyboarding Class. Advanced? Joke of the semester.

I do not know scales, or key signatures. Or the circle of 5th's. Or intervals. Everyone else in that class did. Here's the catch - I was going to have to learn all of them by the end of the month so I could pass the exam. Needless to say, I was freaking out. How does one do that anyway - I had never really taken theory and my old piano teacher never taught me scales. It was beginning to really stress me out. I was going to have to play in juries, and one of my voice classes required a solo. It was entirely too much pressure, especially for a first-year in college and someone who had never been in a classroom setting.

That aside, I was only a B.A in music, not education or performance. Job? No.

That class planted the seed of doubt in myself I had had been playing with for a while. I listened to all the other piano majors practicing - they even messed up pretty (if at all...while practicing). 

So, after a lot of tears (and I mean a lot, and in front of my advisor), I changed my major to CIS and I'm now minoring in music. I think I made the right decision, but I failed to note some things about my self that were very important - I had completely no self-confidence.

1. I was the only first-year piano major

Those piano majors in the practice rooms? All upperclassmen. So I was comparing myself to upperclassmen. Yeah, probably shouldn't have done that.

2. I DID pass the audition.

Yeah, what happened to that? In a teary conversation with my advisor, she told me that I had auditioned very well and she thought I had a lot of talent. She told me I didn't give myself enough credit.

3. Just because I'm a CIS major doesn't mean I can't pursue piano.

Contrary to popular belief, you DO NOT have to major in what you love the most. Sure, I actually really love technology, but I also really love piano. (they wouldn't let me double major.) Also, my piano teacher/advisor told me she still considers me a piano major, and is going to have me learn all the same things the piano majors are learning. So, basically, piano major with out the degree certificate. 

So basically, I lacked self-confidence, and I got scared. I started to switch my major for the wrong reasons. However, now I feel like I made the right decision in the long run for my future - now I can pursue music without all the pressure.

So anyways, I guess the point of this post was have self-confidence?

My next post will be on K-Pop...

Why Yik Yak Will Be the First Website I Hack

So I suppose by now that a lot of you already have heard of that anonymous twitter-like website, called Yik Yak. For those of you are who are not up to date about this app, I will explain it in brief.

Yik Yak, created on November 3rd, 2013, is a location-based messaging service that is entirely anonymous. It resembles a twitter, without having to log in or choose a username. As Yik Yak's website states: "Send and receive anonymous messages based on your location. No sign in, no profile, just chat with anyone around you. Choose your message radius to reach different amounts of people." A person can post and vote on posts without anyone having to know who they are. Sounds great, right? Not really.

Since anyone can post anything with having to say who they are, everything is posted on this website, with no sense of filter or morality. It is overrun with profanity, unpure thoughts, and unkind, bullying verbal behavior. Yes, once a post is voted down enough times, it "disappears". However, that doesn't undo the damage it has already done, and sadly, once something is on the internet, it never really goes away. 

Last week the first-years at my college had what they called "Intruder Training", which was a lecture on how to handle yourself during a dangerous situation, and to stay safe. The person giving the lecture mentioned how one of our academic buildings does not have lockable doors or furniture that you can move to cover yourself. Her point in saying this was that we needed to make sure we got out of that building as fast as possible, were the college campus to be under threat. 

Shortly after this session, someone posted on Yik Yak a statement that people who were in that academic building the instructor mentioned were pretty much dead if there happened to be an active shooter on campus. My college, wanting to make sure that everyone was safe and eliminate the possibility of a threat, locked the building down and checked everyone's backpacks before they went into class. 

As you can see, one small anonymous post on Yik Yak led to many people feeling unsafe and unrest on campus. Because of the easy accessibility of the website and the lack of filter, the person who posted this comment had no second thoughts - after all no one would know who they were. I go to a Christian college, and the use of this website bothers me - I want to protect my brothers and sisters in Christ and participate in an uplifting community. Yik Yak is not helping that. 

"Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." Ephesians 4:29

I'm Alive and Drowning in Homework

Hey guys,

So sorry, I haven't been posting in a while (obviously) and I wanted to get something out there to let ya'll know I'm alive. College is great, but I have a ton of homework. I'll try to get something of consequence out sometime this weekend. Hopefully between piano practice and homework I'll get some free time eventually....

The Internet of Things

We live and breathe technology. Wi-Fi is the the air all around us - we feel naked without having some sort of connection to the online world. The internet is such a huge part of our world, it is hard for us to imagine a life without online connectivity. It has evolved so much over the years - it is truly amazing to realize and contrast the technology of today and from a mere two years ago. A huge example of this is the Internet of Things, or commonly referred to as the IoT. I believe this is the most important and impactful technology of today - it has the potential to become increasingly beneficial and essential in our lives.

The Internet of Things is having commonplace electronics and appliances connected via the internet into a simple manageable connection. Jacob Morgan at Forbes defines the IoT simply as “…the concept of basically connecting any device with an on and off switch to the Internet (and/or to each other).” It is phenomenal - you can connect appliances such as your fridge, your thermostat and your washing machine all to your smartphone and access them remotely. In combination with this IoT technology comes the further inventions of wearable technology, such as Apple’s soon to be released iWatch and Google’s Glass. As the ability to connect advances, more and more of our lives become entangled in online networking. This then brings up the questions: Is this beneficial for society and our lives? Is it safe? How will it change the future?

Some people approach the IoT and wearable technology cautiously. They are concerned with what will happen to social interaction, and what affect the IoT will have on consumer products. With so many people connected to their various devices, what will happen to face to face conversation? While technology changes the way we communicate, it doesn’t mean it is for the worse. While face to face conversation is important, communication over long distances has never been easier. Instead of being concerned we will miss important social interaction, we should focus on all the opportunities we have to connect with friends far off and share more of our lives. Like says in his article on Generation Moth, “Technology will build thriving interpersonal relationships for Generation Moth, who will share more experiences together without ever having to physically be in the same place.”

Security is a popular topic when concerns about uprising technology is addressed. It everything is connected, isn’t the potential for some one to hack your systems and discover your information even higher? Could the convenience of having universal connectivity be harmful in the long run? While security could and most likely become an issue, there has always been security issues. As computer viruses come out, updated antivirus software is released and more efficient firewalls are created. For example, the company SANS is working on creating training courses and security technology especially for the IoT to ensure that that users’ information is safe and kept from cyber theft. As convenience technology moves on, so will security. There will always be security concerns, and there have always been security concerns. We should look at it as another challenge that is necessary during the next step in innovative technology.

The Internet of Things will change the future. Like everything once invented, it effects our lifestyle and how we see the world and society. With this new technology, the way we do things will be very different. Tasks we once had to spend much time on will and are now done quickly. But this will free up our time to create new things, new tasks and spend time building creativity and learning more about our lives. We’ve learned to adapt to other new technology - we will learn to adapt to this one. The future is bright, and exciting, and we should embrace the change that comes with new inventions.

Technology has been evolving, changing our lives everyday since the moment man first learned to garden. It’s a part of life. Impersonal communications will always change with technology - but we make the change good or bad. Cyber security will always be a problem, so we will always continue to fight it. Technology will change us personally, but decide what kind of change it is. The IoT is just the next new thing. We will adapt it, learn it, live with it, and move on.




Sources:

"Don't Underestimate the Impact of the Internet of Things” Kavis, Mike. Forbes. http://www.forbes.com/sites/mikekavis/2014/07/21/dont-underestimate-the-impact-of-the-internet-of-things/



“A Simple Explanation of the Internet of Things” Morgan, Jacob. Forbes. http://www.forbes.com/sites/jacobmorgan/2014/05/13/simple-explanation-internet-things-that-anyone-can-understand/



“Generation Moth” Schybergson, Olaf. Wired. http://www.wired.com/2014/06/generation-moth/

5 Ways to Efficiently Use Google Drive

I've used Google Drive for several years now and I still learn new ways to use this service. I thought I'd share with you a couple ways you can maximize your Drive use without paying to upgrade. While $1.99 a month really isn't that much, when you're a college student that really adds up.

1. Your Free Storage
Google Drive comes with 15GB of free storage - so bear that in mind when uploading your files. As a comparison, iCloud and Dropbox offer 5GB of free storage - so really Google is the best deal here.

2. Photos Don't Count (Well almost)
All photos under 2048x2048px don't count for your storage. Which means, you could have 100GB worth of photos on a 15GB Drive account - and when they are under that size they count for nothing. Fantastic, right? But wait, there's more.

3. Docs Don't Count Either
That's right. Any Google Doc, Sheet or Slide file you create in Drive won't count against your storage. Who needs MS Word?

4. Play Videos From Your Drive Account
Upload alot of vids to Google Drive? It's a pain in the neck to re-download - so stream them on your computer straight from your Drive webpage

5. Offline Access
Need to work on Docs without internet? No problem - download the Google Drive app or simply enable "offline access" in the Drive settings.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask! There's probably stuff I've missed.

Notes on the Last Day at the Office

I finished my schoolwork in late March this year. I was excited to be done, after all, it was the end of my high school days. I then began looking for work. (Mistake #1 - Don't wait until you are done with school before looking for a job) My art teacher had said that there was this Christian arts and music camp that was hiring for the summer. So I applied there first, kind of assuming I would get to work there since my teacher recommended me and said that I had the job. I didn't apply anywhere else and April came and was passing fast. I wasn't hearing back from the camp, so my mom told me to apply other places. Still pretty confident that I had the camp job landed, I applied to a local restaurant and Giant.

Well today ends my days working my office job. I just got back from a dentist appointment (those are fun), and thought I'd do a little post about my work experience while I have the time. I don't know how much time I'll have to blog while I'm at college, hopefully at least once a week.

I've learned a lot working at this office. I want to share the story of how I got this job, because I feel it marked an important checkpoint in my life about trusting God.


It was late April when I finally heard back from the camp. I wasn't hired due to a lack of space for more positions, they simply had filled everything with returning staff. This was a shock and a huge disappointment - I was really looking forward to working at the camp, and thought I had my summer planned out. But God had other plans for me.

Frantically I applied to around 20 other places, freaking out. I needed money for college, and the Penn State students would be taking all the jobs soon. I applied at Giant again, who I later called and they had apparently "lost" my application.

By the second week of May, I had given up. As a last hope, I applied to Giant again. They called me in less than 5 hours of me submitting my application and wanted to schedule an interview. I was so incredibly happy and thankful - I thought I was on Cloud 9. I got the job at Giant, and thought that my life was perfect (well nearly).
My mom then called me one day the next week after I started at Giant and said that a family friend had found a place for me at an office of a company that someone in our church owns. I was hesitant at first - I had the Giant job and I wanted to keep it. I then realized that I needed money - so I interviewed and got the internship position there. I really wanted to keep Giant, so I switched my availability with them to nights, hence why I have two jobs and work 12-15 hour days and nearly 60 hours a week.

But you see, I was so worried about finding a job when God was in control the whole time. He had a bigger picture in mind, while I only focused on the fact I wasn't working at the camp I wanted to. I was over-blessed. I wanted a job really bad - I needed a job really bad - and I got two. Too much job.

Retail Adventures

This week is my last week working both my jobs - I'm going to come back and work once every 28 days (to stay on the payroll) and breaks at Giant, however. Working retail has been an experience, and I'm glad I did it - I've learned a lot of life skills.

Last night I had some adventures. It was already a weird night - I had been doing miscellaneous stuff since I arrived for my shift. I was hired as a cashier, but when the one manager Damien is working, he has me do all kinds of stuff. Which I don't really mind - he's my favorite manager anyways - but it can be a lot of work. 

(Giant literally called me while I was writing this post and asked me to come in two hours early...)

Our closing register wasn't working correctly last night - which ended up being a pain in the neck since Damien had to nag the tech people for permission to open another register's till (You're not supposed to after 10:30, but he had no choice - the register wasn't taking any card payments correctly).

There's a girl my manager that I can't stand - she flirts with him and annoys me constantly. I don't show that I don't like her, I'm actually pretty nice - but she hates me because Damien talks to me more. (which is stupid since she's still sixteen and he's 20) She tells me to shut up, won't bag for me even though it's her job, etc. So she was there last night causing all sorts of problems by hitting the manager call button and laughing as my manager came over to see who needs help. 

The highlight of the night was the homeless guy who we got a cab for. Which cost me 20 bucks I really couldn't afford. I'll admit, a small part of me wanted to say no to helping him out. But hey, I'm doing this for a good cause, it's what Jesus would have done, and if I'm short money He will provide me with what I need - He always has. So I came to peace with it and was glad I was able to help since no one else had any money apparently.

Anyways, those were my adventures in retail. I know, not really all that exciting. But hey, I had nothing else to blog about today.

Guitar Awesome That Is Sungha Jung

Well here goes another music post...

A few months ago I discovered a young guitar player named Sungha Jung. (Actually my mom had mentioned him to me earlier - I just hadn't listened to any of his stuff until recently.) Anyway, he is fantastic - I think he's 16 or 17 and he is just a genius at finger picking guitar. I know alot of people aren't really into this kind of music, but since I play guitar I thought it was extremely cool. Here's one of my favorites. You really have to just watch and listen to see what I mean - it's not enough to explain.

I wish I could play like this...enjoy.

Earl and Fairy (Review)

I decided to watch this anime after seeing that it has similarities to the movie Howl's Moving Castle. I'm a HUGE fan of British drama and Victorian Era stories, so I had high hopes for this anime.

I have to admit after the first episode I wasn't very impressed. The art wasn't fantastic and it was kind of sloppy. However I decided to give it another chance, and fell in love with Lydia and the story line. The character development through this series is excellent, especially with Edgar, and I was really impressed by episode 12. I also loved the music, it was similar to the soundtrack of a movie.





I think this would probably be one of my favorites if it weren't for the romantically odd ending. The plot was somewhat resolved, but I felt like the relationship between Edgar and Lydia wasn't completed. It really ruined how I felt about the anime overall. I'm a big romantic, so others might not mind so much.

The show could easily have gotten another season with it's excellent story, but due to the artwork those possibilities were snuffed pretty quickly.

Pre-College Stress

Recently I have discovered the forest...nay the jungle... that is packing for college. Like, what exactly do you need? What should you leave at home? Will I really need a microwave...or a bath robe? Do I need food in my dorm or should I just take full advantage of the expensive dining plan? I don't know.

Since my college is only approximately 25 minutes away from campus, I decided that I really don't need to bring a ton of stuff. If I am missing something, my mom can bring it over or I can get it or whatever. Less is more in this sense, I suppose.

Getting what I need for college has been stressing me out a little because I've been at work a ton and haven't been able to do much shopping. Hopefully since this is my last week working my two jobs, I'll have a bunch of time next week.

I still need to finish my Fundamentals of Music Theory class and read the common reading book Silver Like Dust. Let's add those to the pile of things I need to get done next week. Ah college life. I can feel its pressure already.

No Music No Life

Ok yeah, I made a really bad anime pun.

 (This in itself is a pun because its a music anime hahahahahahaha)
Uta no Prince Sama

I really love discovering new music. It's like opening a present. You find this random song, and you're just like WOW THIS IS AMAZING and then you proceed to look up every recording ever made by the artist on the internet. But even when you listen to all of their music, the one song you found is still WAY better than all the others.

Music gives me life. To me, when worshiping God together with other Christians, it's the music that leaves the biggest impact on me. I've always loved music more than anything else. It's hard for me to be at work and resist the urge to sing "Titanium" at the top of my voice while bagging groceries.

Anyway, so I found this singer/songwriter called Jason Chen (I mentioned him in my previous post) and his songs are so fantastic (well most of them) and I spent all Sunday afternoon listening to him while cleaning my room. Here's a music video of the best one (in my opinion):

You can download his music for free on Itvemn...but I'm not sure if it's legal so I used iTunes. But his songs are on Spotify as well.

Well I just wanted to share that little random part of my life.

Liebster Award

 

Thanks for the Liebster Award nomination, Ely! So the rules:

• 
  
• thank and link back to the one who tagged you
• list 11 facts about yourself
• answer the eleven questions asked by the blogger who nominated you
• nominate 11 other bloggers who have less than 200 followers (no tag-backsies)
• ask them 11 questions

11 Facts:

1. I'm the oldest of 6 
2. I love Shakespeare (Much Ado About Nothing is my favorite)
3. My favorite Singer/Songwriter is currently Jason Chen -->
4. I usually can't stand abstract art
5. Rap is evil
6. I'm an introvert but I loved NYC
7. I could live on Yakisoba and Pocky
8. My college dorm supplies are all the same two colors, blue and purple (even the mac)
9. I wish I wore glasses so people would believe I'm a nerd
10. I stopped liking soda when I turned 17 or 18
11. I'm allergic to milk (so no Starbucks frappaccinos ;( )

11 Questions from Ely:

1. do you think owls are over-rated or do you think they're cute?
Owls are fantastic, are you kidding me

2. Sunflowers or roses?
Roses

3. Do you wear your watch on your right wrist or your left?
I don't wear a watch, but when I do, it's on my left

4. Do you make friends easier with guys or girls?
Guys...I don't know why...

5. Do you like watching movies at the theatre or at home on your couch better?
Depends. If its a Doctor Who thing, I want to see it in the theater. But mostly at home is better.


6. Middle name?
Elizabeth

7. Are you a fan of impromptu dance parties?
Depends on the situation. I can't dance.

8. What color are your bedsheets?
Pink...

9. pen or pencil?
Pencils FTW Pens are evil

10. favourite band/artist?
Celtic Thunder's my favorite band, and my favorite songwriter is Jason Chen ^



11. Which do you like better--Snoopy or Linus from Charlie Brown?
Linus, I think, because he plays the piano

Alright, there you have it! Unfortunately I don't know a lot of other bloggers, so I'm not tagging anyone :(

Hanasakeru Seishounen (Review)

I have to admit, this anime did not really hold my interest when I started watching it. However, it has some surprising jewels, and I grew to love it.







Story 8/10
Being somewhat of a harem anime, I had low expectations for any plot whatsoever. However, this story is full of twists and turns, and while the ultimate end may seem somewhat predictable, the means we intriguing and surprising at times. Hanasakeru Seishounen is a long anime, but the story was played out well over all 39 episodes.

Art 7/10
The art style is satisfactory, but not spectacular. However, I liked the unique design of each character, and it gave the anime overall interest. There are some actions scenes I thought were done very well.

Sound 6/10
The soundtrack is nothing spectacular, but not bad. It wouldn't be music I would ever want to hear again, however. The opening song didn't really seem to fit the anime I thought.

Character 8/10
The characters are well developed by the end of the anime. I thought everyone found their place. I especially found the antagonist's personality and character development extremely interesting. The main character herself and her childhood friend could have used a little more development, but overall it was pretty good.

Enjoyment 7/10
I enjoyed it for the most part. It was an interesting story, and even though it seemed to move slowly, I found the plot intriguing. The ending was extremely satisfactory for me.

Overall 8/10
If you like romance animes with good endings and a tad of action and well developed characters, then you will love this anime. It is worth your time, and actually made me cry at different times.

The Christian Anime Fan

I've read a lot of articles online that have discussed this controversial topic. I know Christians who are anime fans, and I myself watch a good bit of anime and enjoy it. But I have gotten looks and words from other Christians who feel this isn't in line with the scriptures. So I wanted to write about this confusing topic. Should a Christian watch anime?

Now a lot of anime is not appropriate and does not glorify God. But there are a lot of good quality ones that have important moral messages and are just plain fun. If you're a parent, then it really is just what you feel comfortable letting your child watch. There are websites such as http://www.christiananime.net/ that can help you understand the content in an anime before watching it.

TWWK at Beneath the Tangles writes:

"Many people probably wonder how I can hold these two things, Christian faith and anime, together with any integrity. And I have to admit: it’s not always easy. Then again, nothing is easy when you’re dealing with stories, no matter where they come from or who tells them: my faith teaches that we’re fallen, after all. And stories form the way we look at the world, and the ones we identify with closest become part of our very identities. We have to know whose story is guiding our lives." 

If you are having doubts about whether you are doing what is right, ask yourself the following questions:
1. Is What I Am Watching Glorifying God?
2. How Am I Benefiting From Watching This?
3. What Kind of Impact is this Having on My Life?

1. Is What I Am Watching Glorifying God?
I realize that there are a lot of different opinions when it comes to what glorifies God and what does not. But it comes down to this: If you feel guilty about it, or feel that Jesus wouldn't approve of what you are watching, don't watch it.

2. How Am I Benefiting From Watching This?
There can be a lot of benefits from watching anime. However, this also comes with a negative side. For example, while Ouran High School Host Club may have a lot of good morals about friendship and being yourself, the inappropriate situations/language/themes pretty much overshadow that. I'm not saying that anime should be always educational and never have any negative themes, but it there should be a significantly more amount of positive, upright themes than the negative.

3. What Kind of Impact is this Having on My Life?
Sometimes we get pretty obsessed with stuff. For me, this is a constant struggle, and I have to constantly remind myself of what is most important. If you can't think about anything else, you should stop. (I mean, this applies to everything) When what you are watching starts to take over everything about you, it's unhealthy. As TWWK said, we have to know whose story is guiding our lives. As Christians, we are to follow God - we must keep this is mind in everything we do/watch.

Well I hope this was helpful. Please realize that these are all my personal opinions and I apologize if it hurt anyone's feelings.

Life Hurts

Today I received some news about a family situation that could possibly change me and my sisters life completely. Honestly, I don't know what to do anymore. There is such a high level of stress on me right now that I'm frankly surprised I'm not sick. I already have two jobs, college prep and finances, and a class to worry about and now with this family problem added I'm not sure what's going to happen. I don't understand what God is doing and I'm just so very tired of life and all this pressure I'm under. It keeps building and building like a tidal wave and I know its going to crash soon. I know adulthood comes with responsibility, but I'm under more pressure than an average 40 year old adult.

I'm tired of being told I'm too wound up. People should stop and think about why I would seem that way instead of accusing me of being paranoid and defensive. They have no idea what I'm going through or what I've already went through - I just don't want to hear it anymore. Yes I know I'm no fun...deal with it - I've suffered through mental and emotional abuse for all of my childhood I'm not just going to pretend everything is fine. I don't like living disorganized and unplanned and I'm tired of being made to feel guilty for being that way. Like, excuse me for acting like a mature adult.

And stop making me feel stupid because I don't get your oh-so-funny jokes. I happen to be working and thinking about important things, so I apologize I don't understand your humor or see hilarity in my everyday life. I think about things in a more realistic and serious light - that does not mean I'm stupid or slow.

So what, I didn't go to the beach with my family this year. Sure, I understand your concern, but that was my decision, and you have no idea what my financial situation is like. Don't you think it was already hard enough for me to make that decision? Double questioning me about it makes me feel depressed and wonder if I made the right choice. Thanks, but I feel bad enough about it already.

No, I don't know what I'm going to do with my piano degree. I don't need to know what I'm going to be doing in June of 2018 while its still August of 2014. I have four years to decide that. Thanks again, random concerned person, for wondering about my life goals, but frankly it's none of your business. After all, it's my life and my tuition bill. And no, I'm not commuting, yes I know it's cheaper - but that is also none of your business.

Please stop complaining about your parents. I don't want to hear how your dad wouldn't take you to a movie on the night you wanted or your mom forgot to pick you up the food you wanted at the grocery store. At least you have a dad who isn't a complete jerk, and how about helping your mother out once and a while instead of complaining about her? I understand that everyone has their own parent problems, but those kind of things aren't even issues. It's rude to talk about your parents that way.

Ok, I'm done. I just wanted to write that out somewhere.

I Meet People

As I mentioned in the last post, meeting people is not one of my favorite things. I don't socialize very well and try to avoid socializing situations because I will replay moments where I believe I've done something embarrassing forever and ever in my head afterwards. Kind of a self-torture in a way. As I look on this now, a lot of those moments probably didn't matter to anyone else anyway and honestly, I was being kind of stupid. 

Anyway, I also said in the last post that working at Giant has helped grow my socializing skills. I wanted to expand on this, hence this post. I used to be very afraid to even say hello to strangers, make eye contact, or even smile. Now as a cashier, this is sort of required, and I quickly realized within the first 5 minutes of my first shift that I was going to have to get used to talking to people. I thought this would take me a while to get over, but in fact, it only took a couple of months. 

Now, putting aside the fact that every time I go into Giant I feel this adrenaline and a strong urge to smile and say hi to every stranger I see, I am now not afraid to talk to people anymore. I still haven't gotten over my fear of guys...That one has always been harder, and hopefully it will change at college. But I've changed, and my personality has changed a little for the better. (I think)

Alright, Let's Get Caught Up Part II

Ok, so in my last post I was talking about my retail job at Giant food stores. Good ole retail life. Now I said that my other job was an office one - its' not as boring as it sounds. I do a lot of cool stuff. Really.

Actually I do a mix of social media monitoring, web design, graphic design, and other related miscellaneous stuff. This week I just finished created 6 ebooks for my company to go up on one of the websites. It's actually really cool and it's what led me to my decision to double major in college.

I have decided to double major in Piano and Computer and Information Sciences with a Concentration in Web Management. I know, I know, two vastly different subjects. But hey, I love piano, and I'm really awesome with computers, so why not? (I really should do a whole post on how I practically live the Family Tech Guy Meme, but that can wait)

To be completely honest, college is freaking me out. It's going to be a lot of responsibility. And when I say that, I'm not talking about being on my own - I'm used to that, plus I'm an introvert (us introverts thrive on being alone). It's more the social and financial aspects for me. I've never been good communicating with other people (especially guys), and the prospect of meeting so many new people is really kind of scary. Also, getting school finances has been extremely difficult. But it's in God's hands and I will survive.

On a more happy note, I got a macbook pro! It is fantastic and amazing AND I sold my soul to Apple....more like just my bank account. But I think it was worth it. So long, Microsoft.

Welp that's all for this one, I'll try to post mini updates like this throughout the rest of this week. I post spastically, so, yeah.

Alright, Let's Get Caught Up Part I

Hi people!
So, I haven't been able to post much due to the fact that my life is really busy right now. But I thought I would give you all an update on what I've been doing. Wow, I can't believe I haven't posted since March.

OK, so I graduated High School. (That's something, right) - Graduation was interesting, since I was cyber schooled, I met my fellow class men for the first time. Kind of weird, but it was actually fun. I had my graduation party the same day, and that was amazing.

I now have two jobs. One, I work at Giant Food Stores, and the other is an office job where I do cool computer stuff and all that jazz. To be honest working both these jobs at the same time is really stressing me out and I hope I don't have to do the same thing next summer. But college is expensive, so I do what I want to do.

Ah the retail life...Working a shift at Giant can be either really fun or really annoying and long. It really is only one extreme or the other. There's people you get along with really well, and then there's the people who you can't stand. Honestly I think it's really good experience, and for the most part it can be kinda fun. But the other employees really make or break it.

There's a couple of guys that really like to give me a hard time, which pushes me way out of my comfort zone considering I'm really terrible talking to guys in general. But it's getting me ready for college life, so it's good.

Anyways there's part 1...I'll post again later.

I'm Alive

Hey people I just wanted to drop in and say hi real quick and let you all know I'm alive. I just got a macbook pro (YAY) so hopefully I can start posting again. :D

Faito ka shinu (Fight or Die)

Faito ka shinu (Fight or Die) For Shingeki no Kyojin


It’d be better if you weren’t my friend
After all we all die in the end
Am I really just only a story?
Why should all of us take that as glory?

To fight is all that we know now
To kill is something we all vow
A dream is something forgotten
This sorrow is all that we’ve gotten

This nightmare seems never ending
But I know what I am defending
The wall we once used to flee
Will soon mark the start of the free

Silence

Somewhere I lost my dream
Now I just sit here in silence
My hope has lost its gleam
Now there is nothing but silence.

It’s like I've got off a train
And suddenly now there is silence
I’m standing still in this rain
And somehow that too is just silence.

There’s never a window to night
With no light of course there is silence
And I've lost my reason to fight
It’s like I’m embracing this silence

My own solitary thought is my home
Grey is the color of silence
Isolation is the name of my throne
I think I’m in love with this silence

When you’re alone,
Silence is all you know

The Power of Words Part 2

Continuing on the wordy posts...
So I was talking with my best friend and she said I should write a blog post on swearing. I got a Tumblr account about a month ago, (I don't know why it was the worst mistake I made in my life) and I have encountered a lot of people on this website who use words that I believe are offensive and rude and vulgar regularly. (mostly the f-word) And when I say regularly, I mean that they use these words at least five times a sentence. Now I don't wish to judge anyone, I know people who have very different views on this and that would probably disagree with me. I'm not going to start an argument or send hate mail or anything, this is just my personal opinion and this is my blog so I'm writing it on here.

There are two sides to this. One, the use of the f-word in internet debates and hate mail, and two, the use of the same word in daily communication.

I believe that internet debates are not always to be avoided, they are good ways to see how other people think and to share your opinion. However, when the debates start to get to the point where people are insulting each other personally, it needs to be stopped. It has become the norm to use the f-word in various insulting sentences intended to harm, humiliate and tear people down. It seems to be the most offensive word people can use off the top of their heads to insult someone.

In daily communication, I makes me want to gag. Everything is just f this, f that, and apparently humanity's IQ is low that we can't even thing of any other word to use to describe anything anymore. The future really isn't looking bright for our children.

In other words, using such profanity is shameful, hurtful, arrogant and just downright lacking in decency. But so is other hateful talk.

Ephesians 4:29 says:
"Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." ESV

I think we all need to remember this verse when we talk to others. 

“Hear and understand: it is not what goes into the mouth that defiles a person, but what comes out of the mouth; this defiles a person.” - Matthew 15: 10b - 11

The Power of Words

Ok so sorry I don't post as much as I used to, life is crazy and I am starting to have to face the fact that I'm an adult (or quite nearly).

I recently finished a manga titled "Alice 19th". It is a story about sisters who fight over a guy. Well, basically. Ok, I know this sounds quite cheesy, but bear with me. It is officially the best manga I've read for several reasons. But first I'll explain the plot a little. Manga and animes are known to have ridiculous plots and dragged out stories (Charles Dickens, anyone?) so I apologize in advance if this makes absolutely no sense.

The story begins with two sisters in high school who end up falling for the same guy. The heroine of the story and the younger sister Alice, falls in love with upperclassmen Kyo. (I told you it sounds cheesy at first, seriously it really isn't.) It turns out her older sister Mayura is also in love with him and asked him out on his birthday, to which Kyo responded "he needed to think about". Alice is upset because she loves Kyo and her sister, but is frustrated and too afraid to tell Kyo how she feels. Mayura knows nothing about her sisters feelings because Alice is very reserved. They end up having an argument in which Alice tells Mayura she wishes she would "disappear". Mayura does just that, to Alice's shock.

The story goes on and Alice finds out she is a Lotis Master who can use words and wield them as power, which was why Mayura disappeared. Kyo also is a Lotis Master, and after certain side characters appear (I won't get into them), they discover that Mayura has been captured by the Darkness, or Mara. Alice and Kyo need to master the words of Lotis to save Mayura and the rest of the world from the Mara. They are told they are prophesied to do this, and become the Neomasters of Lotis.

There are a lot of details to this story that I won't bother explaining. But I liked it because of the message it gave. Words are important and how we use them is even more important. Sometimes our words can be more hurtful than the physical and this story (in an extreme way) emphasized this. It also stressed how important it is to be open and tell the truth right away, which is something that I struggle with since I'm introverted and reserved like Alice. The more darkness we keep inside us, the worse it becomes. I'm reminded of a poem titled "The Poison Tree" I studied recently in British Lit by William Blake.

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I watered it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright.
And my foe beheld it shine.
And he knew that it was mine,

And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.       

Words can kill people, and so can the lack of. Openness is peace, and a quiet mouth isn't always humble.

 

Java Ain't No Coffee

This is a post about coding and programming so if you don't like that kind of stuff  and/or is really bores you and gives you a headache I won't blame you because I was like that until I started coding.

I started learning code and programing on Code Academy a couple months ago and I finished HTML and CSS so I'm doing JavaScript now. Let me just say, I can now appreciate the people who work on websites and such. Java is hard and learning it requires you to remember a lot of stuff. Actually I've been trying to use the Loki memory method to remember different attributes and variables. It has surprised me how much math is actually involved. But I can handle it, it's not difficult math at least.

I'm really excited to learn how to make stuff like web apps and write website code, but I know I'm pretty far away from that. But it's been fun being able to change certain stuff in code on my blog and my Tumblr page now that I know what I'm looking for.

Anyway just a random update on my ridiculous life.

Slan,
Courtney Elizabeth

Sherlock

So I have been watching BBC Sherlock when it airs in America on PBS. (I know I could have watched it online a month ago, but I decided to wait since it will be a while till the next season comes out.) This show never ceases to amaze me. It stays unpredictable until the end, and keeps me on my toes. I've seen the first two episodes, (actually that makes me have only one left) and I love season 3. I don't have a favorite Sherlock episode, but this season is just amazing.


I'm really excited to see what happens in the last episode; everything is so happy now after the wedding it's going to get a little scary. It seems BBC likes to do that to people; make them feel really good about an episode and then give them one that makes everyone sit with their mouths open in shock for hours. (i.e Downton Abbey) I've been rewatching the episodes like two days after I see them, I always miss something important the first time through.


Anyhow just wanted to share my Sherlock-ness with the world. Unfortunately I'm not going to be able to watch the new episode Sunday due to the super bowl...I'm going to be at a church youth event at my best friends house. (Ironic, neither of us care about football at all, like we would totally be watching Sherlock and Downton instead.) So I'll have to watch it Monday via the net (PBS website).


That's all. (seriously I don't know how to end a blog post)

The Black Death

I am the last surviving member of the Edbourne family. I am left, at seventeen years of age, to fend for myself in this cruel, sad and ending world. It is funny, in an ironic way. Two sunrises ago, I had a family. A mum and a dad, a younger brother and an older sister. Within that short span of time, I have been made an orphan. I have no friends. The Black Death has taken everyone important to me, everyone I loved.

            I am in a church with a few survivors from our village. I don’t know why we have been spared. It doesn’t make any sense to me at all. Frankly, I would rather I was dead. I don’t want to live alone, or not alone, but with people I don’t know, that aren’t my family. The year is 1350. Most people in the surrounding villages are dead. Doctors are estimating that a third of the population is dead thoughout England. And I ask, “God, why don’t you end this disease?”

            As I lie on the cold floor of the church, looking up at the ceiling, I ponder what I will do. If I don’t die, (which seems most likely) I will probably end up being sent to work for some farmer by the pope of our church.  I really want to be a knight, but I know that dream is ridiculous. I am not even of a noble family. But perhaps, which so many dead…. Inwardly I kicked myself for thinking so darkly. It was cruel and wicked to use the deaths of so many for one’s personal gain. I had just heard one of the doctors rebuke a noble for talking so the other day.

            Rats run by me as I lay still. Stupid, stinking rats. They caused all this trouble to begin with. Mostly likely they are the ones causing this horrible disease. I kicked one of them as it ran by my feet, and it yelped, and ran into a corner. A girl scrubbing the floor on the other side of the room glared at me. I glared back. I didn’t see why I shouldn’t kick the rats. I sat up and pulled myself next to the wall.

            I rubbed the back of my head. My hair used to be past my ears, but I had to have it cut short. Apparently it was supposed to keep bugs out and somehow reduce the risk of infection. I like it, but it is different, and will take some getting used to. That must be why it was so itchy. I rolled my shoulders and rubbed my back against the wall.

            The girl scrubbing came over and looked at me critically. “How do you feel?”

            “Fine, why?”

            “Stand up and turn around.” I did so, confused.

            “Oh my God,” she said, “you have it.”

I wrote this last year for school. I know it's not very good, but I thought I'd post it anyway.

Yet Another Tech Problem

Okay, so I got my computer back, but I ran into other technology problems. Our family used to have DirectTV as our television service, however our internet and phone is Verizon, and she recently received a better off to do cable tv with them for a better price. So, I hook up the Verizon box. (Yes, I'm the established Master-of-Everything-Tech in my house, so naturally this became my job. So I plug everything into the correct ports and turn the tv and the cable box on. Nothing happens. Okay, so I missed something. I double check all cords and repeat this several times. I input to the correct channel on the TV, and I get a flashing distorted image and then it goes blue. Hallelujah, we have another tech problem. So now I have to talk to people. Which I hate. A lot. Even if it is on chat, (because apparently everyone that works at Verizon is introverts; when you call their phone lines, you can't talk to an actual person, it is all something that sounds like Siri. So in order to talk to a human being, you must "chat".) it is annoying to me because they still seem to not understand what you are saying even when you are typing it.

Anyway, so after chatting for about an hour the guy tells me that our service isn't "technically" activated for two more days. ...
I try again after two more days and there is not difference. You guessed it - I'm back on chat with another Verizon employee who tells me not to worry he will fix the problem today. I had my doubts. So I waste another two hours of my time, to no avail. Since we are having no success, he tells me that they are going to send another box. We get said box the next day, (I guess I can be impressed with the fast shipping), and skeptically I hook it up. Ta-da! Nope.

I would like to say that by at this point in time I was feeling EXTREMELY TICKED. I was toying around with various ideas on how do destroy the cable boxes in the most satisfying way.
I was feeling something like this:

But I probably ended up looking like this, because generally I'm too angry to say anything.

In the end they ended up sending someone out to our place who could technically charge us if they discovered that the problem was our fault. By now I had narrowed the situation down to two possibilities:
1. There was a problem with our TV, and possible something to do with the cable section on the TV which we had not used in years due to the fact that DirectTV was satellite. I was skeptical of this hypothesis because our TV has no other problems.
2. There was a problem with the hardwiring/cables. Possibly the cables are only wired for DirectTV and Verizon needs different wiring.

Turns out number two was spot on. They didn't even have it wired for TV. Thank goodness we didn't have to pay for anything. That is the last thing we need. Right now, I'm just glad it's over with. That DVR had better work...

Back In Business

Guys! My computer is back!

Ok, creepiness aside...It just came back a couple of hours ago. I am so excited; I was about ready to kill that tech team. :) I had actually just said something of the same to my mom before she left this morning. I guess the tech team got nervous. ;)

Anyway, so now I plan on getting caught up with you people's blogs and continue posting regularly on my own.

Till later!

A Tech Rant

My computer has died.

This is why I wasn't posting for a while. For some odd and ridiculous reason, my computer has decided to fail me. This is extremely annoying to me because I am able to fix every technological problem with computers in my house. I hate calling tech, its is shameful for me. That I, the family computer whiz, should have to call those tech guys on the phone. It's shocking. (Who ask dumb questions like "did you restart the computer?") It's embarrassing and I HATE talking to people. On. The phone.

Anyway, it's library day, so I'm posting from one of their computers. My computer went out in the mail today, so it should be back in a couple of days hopefully. I'm going crazy without it. I'm really hoping they send me back my same computer, I don't want a new one. :(

Respect Part 2

Ok, so I decided to do another post on respect because evidently I was not clear in my previous one and I left some important things out. I want to clear up some stuff about it; I didn't plan that post at all, it was really random and impulsive, so I really didn't consider all the aspects of what I was stating. So I decided that I would put what I was saying into a statement, or a couple of short sentence points on what I believe on this subject.

• I believe that everybody deserves a level of respect as a person because God made them.
• I DO NOT believe that just because they are over us means we have to agree with them 100% or at all.
• I DO NOT believe that we should obey orders that go against God and what he says in the scriptures. (i.e if the president asked me to lie about something, I would not do it.)
• I believe that we should not talk disrespectfully about those in position over us.
• I DO NOT believe that the above means that we cannot openly disagree with them.

I hope this clears some things up about what I was saying. Sorry for the confusion. 

Who Deserves Respect?

My family does devotions every morning after breakfast. They are really short, but are a great way to start the day. Today we talked about honoring authorities; and what that means when one is a Christian, and how to follow God by honoring others.

Since I got a Facebook account, I have realized that a lot of people disagree with the government; not only do they just disagree, they are very adamant about their opinions. And most of them want to share their strong opinions with a wide audience: everyone on Facebook. Recently there has been a lot of this, people complaining about our president in a degrading and disrespectful way which made our family devotion very thought provoking. So who deserves our respect?

Romans 13: 1-7 says the following:
"Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God. Therefore whoever resists the authorities resists what God has appointed, and those who resist will incur judgment. For rulers are not a terror to good conduct, but to bad. Would you have no fear of the one who is in authority? Then do what is good, and you will receive his approval, for he is God's servant for your good. But if you do wrong, be afraid, for he does not bear the sword in vain. For he is the servant of God, an avenger who carries out God's wrath on the wrongdoer. Therefore one must be in subjection, not only to avoid God's wrath but also for the sake of conscience." (ESV)

Now it is important for us to realize that just because we are to respect authorities, does not mean we have to agree with what the person over us says and does. It means we are to respect that person(s) because God set them in place over us. We are to honor and respect them because we are to honor and respect God.

There is also the fact that God made them, just like He made us. So they deserve respect on that level already because they are God's creation and a human being like everyone else.

"Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor." Romans 12:10. (ESV)   

So who deserves our respect? Everyone, even those who do wrong.

Storing Artwork

This is a post about artwork and storing it, so if you don't do that or you are not interested in such random art things you might find this quite boring.

 I have always stored by artwork in sheet protector in large 3-ring binders, but not all my artwork is 81/2 by 11 or smaller. This is getting annoying, and sometimes I have to cut the edges off to fit the papers in my sheet protectors. The other thing is, I put a lot of drawings in one sheet protector, but that makes it hard to take them out for reference.

So does anyone have any better ideas? I am kind of sick of having to make the size of my artwork smaller so that it fits in my binder. I keep digital copies of all my artwork, but I want to keep all my originals.

Anyways, that's it.

Slan.

On Fandoms

I started a new folder on my DeviantART account called "The Fandom Series". I have decided to start drawing people from my fandoms. This all started yesterday when I thought it would be a challenge to draw Sherlock; I had a lot of free time and I was really feeling excited about Sherlock 3 for some random reason. So here are the drawings. So far I have Sherlock and Watson. They are also on my DA account which is a tab on this page, if your interested in looking at a better resolution image.

I Do Creative Stuff

Yeah, that was a creative title. Whatever.
So I said earlier that I created my own Tardis/River Song journal. Well, sort of. This is what I made.

I just covered a blank sketchbook. I know, it's lame I mean, the paper didn't even really fit my sketchbook. But I like it, so it doesn't matter. I put that clear plastic covering stuff on top of it after I glued the design on. I can't remember what the stuff is called. Anyway, I just thought I would share it with you. I think I will try to make a better one in the future, there were a lot of DIY ones on Pinterest and Tumblr that I might see if I can make. I would have made a better version but I didn't have the materials that they called for at the time.

 

I watched Tom Baker episodes all day while drawing and doing this. One of the ones I remember was the story The Talons of Wei-Chang. It was funny at certain parts and kind of creepy in others. I liked the Doctor's Sherlock hat in this episode; it was hilarious. I think he wears one in the new series, but I can't remember.

 





Anyway, so now break is over and I have to get back to school and start looking for a job. I just realized a couple days ago that this is my last winter break as a high school student. Boy does time fly...