Why I Think I Have No Friends

Walking into the dining hall alone is perhaps the scariest thing ever. I walk in, and look around for someone I know and half the time I can't find anyone. The people that I would like to hang out with never eat at the same time as me and so often I end up sitting by myself - also partly to the fact that my roommate ignores me. So therefore I have come to the conclusion that I must have no friends.

Whether or not this is true has no validity at the moment since I have already determined that I have no friends since no one I know is in the dining hall when I need to eat. There have been times when I make plans with someone and then it doesn't work out - which has also led me to believe that I have no friends.

I soon realized as I processed this way of thinking, that I based my friendships on whether or not my "friends" were in the dining hall when I wanted to eat. How dare you skip a meal and leave me here alone. As if I am the most important person in the world and if you don't eat with you are not my friend.

Obviously this thinking is wrong and I have friends. As a matter of fact I just ate dinner with one.

I Accompany Someone for the First Time

So my friend asked me to accompany him for his hymn project in his theory class (which I withdrew from because it was above my experience level and blah blah blah) and I said yes, thinking that it would enable me to get over my fear of performing in front of people and therefore I would gain more experience. 

Ok maybe a valid point but I had less than 12 hours to learn the music I had to play....hymn in CM no biggie, and I learned it in 2 and 1/2 hours of straight practice (I even skipped my oral communication class).

As you can imagine, it comes time to play and I freak out and mess up and now I feel pretty lame and I hope my friend didn't get a bad grade on his project due to my uncalm nerves. In short, I just feel pretty terrible but at least I didn't stop half way through the song?

Lonely Reliance

Waiting for a sign
You're blowing up my mind
I'm lonely and I'm lost without you
Searching for a line
To help the past rewind
Discovering what is and isn't true

Wanting to define
What am I in mankind
If you're not here then what do I do
Stars constantly align
What do I need to find
To make the time refresh and renew

Lonely is long, dark and silent,
But on My God I'll be ever reliant.

Stereotype Fun: A Rant of K-pop Gifs

So stereotypes are everywhere. Here are a couple:

To the people who think I can't play instruments because I'm not a music major:

To the people who think homeschoolers have social problems:

To the people who think computer science is all about using MS Word:

To the people who think Oxford is in the US: